My Story

God Remind Me from My First Love in High School

It was a story about me when I met someone in Senior High School. Firstly I didn’t know why meeting with him has made me felt so nervous. Because of that thing, I began to be so care to him, but I doubted about his behave to me. Then I thought that I had to know everything about him so I tried to find his phone number, his address, and everything about him.

Till one day luckily in 10^th grade, we were in same class. So I was very glad because I could see him in class every time. As long as I knew I made him as my motivator in order to study hard and my motivator to reach my futures. Day by day was passing, and finally I got his phone number, I knew where he lives. And I knew the way he pointed out something and his habits. It was almost everything about him.

        Unfortunately in 11^th grade, we were not in the same class again. However, even though I was not in the same class with him, I can still care with him by sending short messages to his phone number which I got from my friend. Next It was like people said ‘go in the flow’, so I was close with him and I wished he could response me as the special one, not only as his friend. One day, he seldom send message to me, such as I wanted.

        Finally in 12^th grade, we were in the same class, such as I wanted before. Even some classmates knew that I do love him. Until every day some friends mocks us, so we just smiles. I don’t recognize his smiling happily about us or just to response his friends. At least now I am realizing that it was no purpose thing for me, I am trying to think about so many important things in my life then. Because this 12^th grade I had better gives almost my times to study so I can reach my dream to become a doctor. Although I always try little by little to forget him, truly it is hurting me. However that's okay, because now I think he has begun for ignoring everything about me.  I didn’t know his reason and it was mystery for me till now. And now really he does not care with me. So it made a little easier to forget him. Then I also think, whether I cannot get his caring. Someday I can get somebody better than him. Because I believe, God will give the best thing for everyone. It must be not always about what we want but always about what we needs. Then, as soon as I am always grateful to God, so I do more respects to know the meaning of life.