God Remind Me from My First Love in High School
It was a story about me when I met someone in Senior High School. Firstly I didn’t know why meeting with him has made me felt so nervous. Because of that thing, I began to be so care to him, but I doubted about his behave to me. Then I thought that I had to know everything about him so I tried to find his phone number, his address, and everything about him.
Till one day luckily in 10th grade, we were in same class. So I was very glad because I could see him in class every time. As long as I knew I made him as my motivator in order to study hard and my motivator to reach my futures. Day by day was passing, and finally I got his phone number, I knew where he lives. And I knew the way he pointed out something and his habits. It was almost everything about him.
Unfortunately in 11th grade, we were not in the same class again. However, even though I was not in the same class with him, I can still care with him by sending short messages to his phone number which I got from my friend. Next It was like people said ‘go in the flow’, so I was close with him and I wished he could response me as the special one, not only as his friend. One day, he seldom send message to me, such as I wanted.
Finally in 12th grade, we were in the same class, such as I wanted before. Even some classmates knew that I do love him. Until every day some friends mocks us, so we just smiles. I don’t recognize his smiling happily about us or just to response his friends. At least now I am realizing that it was no purpose thing for me, I am trying to think about so many important things in my life then. Because this 12th grade I had better gives almost my times to study so I can reach my dream to become a doctor. Although I always try little by little to forget him, truly it is hurting me. However that's okay, because now I think he has begun for ignoring everything about me. I didn’t know his reason and it was mystery for me till now. And now really he does not care with me. So it made a little easier to forget him. Then I also think, whether I cannot get his caring. Someday I can get somebody better than him. Because I believe, God will give the best thing for everyone. It must be not always about what we want but always about what we needs. Then, as soon as I am always grateful to God, so I do more respects to know the meaning of life.
